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rubahSometimes I think my mom has it in for my sanity.
I want to paint my room. Nothing drastic , it'd be a weekend project and other than getting a bit of help moving furniture I'd do it all on my own.
Mom said that would be fine.
Then she starts telling me what to do.
Then she starts yelling at me because I have dirty clothes on my floor. (Not uncommon for a fifteen year old's room on a Wednesday)
My mom screams and yells when we fight and acts like I am being terrible , and then halway through the screaming she'll hug me and say I love you , and then start screaming again.
So usually she gets that glazed over "I-am-possessed-and-evil" look and I am usually just trying to grasp my last bit of sanity and bawling my head off.
She thinks life is so hunky-dory for me. Well , i guess it is. I can't really complain about anything but between studying and homework, the rest of my time is usually chores and whatever I have left after that is with friends/tv/doing whatever I want. She acts like I get good grades without trying. I'm working hard, but sometimes I don't think she cares that much. Unless I bring home a bad mark. Then she has a spaz attack.
I think she forgets what its like to be a teenager. But I think it's a bit different now than it was for her. I think her biggest worry was who was going to win Student Council President and whether or not her parents would let her go to the dance.
I worry about whether or not my two friends will be abducted by creepy old guys , whether or not my other friend will get pregnant , and about people killing themselves/overdosing/driving drunk or high , whatever. One of my friends is mad at me at LEAST twice or three times a week. My "little" brother shoves me around like a ragdoll.
So yeah. I'm a little pissed off. Only because it's 11:35 and my mom spent half an hour screaming that I was trying to manipulate her and make her feel guilty.
I just want to paint a mural on my bedroom wall.
-Meekah
I want to paint my room. Nothing drastic , it'd be a weekend project and other than getting a bit of help moving furniture I'd do it all on my own.
Mom said that would be fine.
Then she starts telling me what to do.
Then she starts yelling at me because I have dirty clothes on my floor. (Not uncommon for a fifteen year old's room on a Wednesday)
My mom screams and yells when we fight and acts like I am being terrible , and then halway through the screaming she'll hug me and say I love you , and then start screaming again.
So usually she gets that glazed over "I-am-possessed-and-evil" look and I am usually just trying to grasp my last bit of sanity and bawling my head off.
She thinks life is so hunky-dory for me. Well , i guess it is. I can't really complain about anything but between studying and homework, the rest of my time is usually chores and whatever I have left after that is with friends/tv/doing whatever I want. She acts like I get good grades without trying. I'm working hard, but sometimes I don't think she cares that much. Unless I bring home a bad mark. Then she has a spaz attack.
I think she forgets what its like to be a teenager. But I think it's a bit different now than it was for her. I think her biggest worry was who was going to win Student Council President and whether or not her parents would let her go to the dance.
I worry about whether or not my two friends will be abducted by creepy old guys , whether or not my other friend will get pregnant , and about people killing themselves/overdosing/driving drunk or high , whatever. One of my friends is mad at me at LEAST twice or three times a week. My "little" brother shoves me around like a ragdoll.
So yeah. I'm a little pissed off. Only because it's 11:35 and my mom spent half an hour screaming that I was trying to manipulate her and make her feel guilty.
I just want to paint a mural on my bedroom wall.
-Meekah
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Date: 2004-04-22 07:59 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-04-22 01:12 pm (UTC)I do get my mural!
-Meekah