I didn't wear any deoderant today

Yeah I didn't realize I had forgotten to apply any until I already left for class this morning xD Then I made a note to put some on when ig ot back because it was going to be warm today, and I forgot againxD I just now really noticed. Rather sweet smelling for a 75° day and a thick knit shirt xD Oh well! I guess that's enough about my BO xD

I made a really awesome signature for eoff last night. I really love it. I also submitted a story for penny arcade's ten words WoW contest. I think it's pretty funny xD It has to do with gnomes being really short and able to see all kinds of different angles than the taller species.

Ugh, I feel like I have so much to do crammed in the four weeks of FRESHMANYEAR that are left. I'm kinda scared and nervous to my stomach to the point that I woke up at 8 this morning with some horrible anxiety. I'm glad I learned to push those kinds of worries to the back of my mind before I got to college. I wouldn't be sleeping half as well if I hadn't.

Things I have to do this week:
Physics Test (Thursday)
Calculus Test (Friday)
french homework (for wednesday and probably friday)
American Government quiz (Tuesday)
Make a glider and write up a bunch of word document and make powerpoint slides about it (All week and next week and the week after)
put up the clothes I brought back for spring weather. They're all dumped into my chair atm. Poor stu had to sit in emily's chair yesterday while we did physics homework. I also have to spray them with febreeze because they smell like my parents' house.

It's incredible how foul it smells there now that I don't live there. I almost hate to have mom wash my clothes there because then they smell like home :O I guess it's a combination of stale cigarette smoke (even if the door to her smoking room is closed and the ventillator is on it still seeps out ), animal smell, and probably five different species of mold. When I was little I never cared about keeping the house clean, and I couldn't imagine that it could smell so nasty. Well, the house doesn't smell nasty, but maybe that's me expecting it to smell that way, but my clothes and anything fabric will smell horrible for a couple of days after visiting for a couple of days. It's kinda frustrating.

It's inspired me to keep a clean house when I have one to keep up anyways. Although I probably won't since I haven't learned good cleanliness habits (although i do try to pick up the dust bunnies off the floor behind the door in my dorm! stu has some big ones piling up xD)

I keep alternating between feeling excited and scared about living in france for a month.

Things that are scary:

Having to speak another language daily. I may be leaps and bounds ahead of most people in my french classe in terms of faculty with the language and able to use it, but I'm not GOOD at it. I have to think phrases through many times before I can say them, and mouth them several times before I can say them without stumbling

Having coursework to do

Having to write a two page report when i get back (for having used fellowship money). I didn't know I'd have to do that until today. Oh well, c'est la vie des étudiants d'honeurs.

Not having any friends going over with me. Then again, I didn't really have any when i went to London either, so what's the difference? I also don't really have any at college anyways (besides stu! Oh I'm going to miss him for sure, but I will also be normal missing him over summer break anyways and oh it makes me want to cry thinking about it :() so maybe I can get a net gain of friendship for this time.

Things I'm not really worried about

Culture shock. I think most people who get to know me the least bit can recognize that this is the kind of culture I like to think about or read about or live. At least I think it is. Thats why it's not totally something I'm excited about xD

Being abroad. When I was in London they babied us to the extent of being annoying. It'll almost be worth not having people I'm acquainted with go with me as a group so that they won't be retardedly touristy. I don't know, I'm not really worried abou tpick pockets or anything. how many women carry a wallet like a man does? xD Perhaps I should carry a purse just so they don't think I do as well xD

oh, I guess that's a fun fact most of you reading probably don't know about me. I never carry a purse. Like ever. In fact, I bought a purse at th ebeginning of the semester so I'd have something small to take with me instead of the huge bag I had, but I converted it to a camerabag forthwith. I've had a wallet since I was like 13. I've gone through three of them so far I think. Black leather mens wallets just like my dad's always had xD In fact, the seat pocket on one of my older pairs of jeans has a faded outline where it's been so much xD

My friend's mom asked me one time if I didn't need to carry pads or tampons around, and really I don't. I keep one in my backpack for the long days at school, but my period has been amazingly regular as long as I've had it (I can't remember when I started anymore xD fifth or sixth grade I guess). Besides, I can tell it's coming froma mile away because my face starts breaking out and my breasts feel really tender xD (LOL TMI). So it's only if I underestimate how much I bleed that I need a pad around, but usually I overestimate, so~

ANYWAYS

Things I'm excited about!

BEING IN FRANCE (this is something I've wanted to do forever. learning to speak french is something I've wanted to do forever. This is kinda one of those life-long desires or whateveR)

Learning to speak french better xD (There was this book by david sedaris I think that I read once because someone on the internet loved it, and the only story that sticks with me now is the one where the guy was living with his boyfriend in france without having known the language and he picked it up out of necessity)

chance for good exercizes xD

and I think this is about enough for one post