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[rubah]

I don't know if I can take this anymore...

Good lord...

I'm sorta thinking about just quitting.. No one seems to care about me here anymore.

I mean, a scant few even look at this journal, and I bet a good deal of them just want meekah's posts...

I can't even get respected in the dolling world.. I pour my heart into everything I ever try to doll, and I just get 'oh, thatissocoolthisisjustaspam post' replies... No one even takes the time to visit snowy-day... Might as well just let it expire in July.. Heck, cyberpixels didn't even count me good enough to respond really fast ;_;

I mean, seriously... this is pathetic! I go through seven hours of crap at school because there's people that don't respect me, and here I go through another five hours and there aren't even people who *care* that I even exist>.<;;

Besides... I've sorta been having a lot of trouble with math and crap-_- I can't graph a friggin' system of inequalities right. Every time I try to graph one, I *ALWAYS* get the slope wrong on one inequality, and the whole thing just goes friggin' downhill...

I could use another five hours... Build up my knowledge resevoirs, you know (sp?) Oh, and play final fantasy.. At least the characters there don't try to ignore me. Just push X and someone will be there to talk to you... And there's a really good book I've been reading recently.. It's called The Good Earth, I think, and it's about this Chinese guy, and he just hired some woman to come and have sex with him all day long..

Yeah, screw this. I mean. over five years and 650 posts, and what is there to be shown by it?

Absoluteafreaking nothing.

Except....

The 100 I love to read about every day, even if I can't talk to them,
the 60 people that take the time once in a while to read about me, because I've affected them at some point in their lives,

the 800 users at MH that make the site good for everyone, even if it isn't fast paced,

the guys at BST and the Realm that really liked my sword picture (wtf did none of you guys comment in that post, I'd like to know:P)

And especially the two people at Deviant Art who put me on their watch list after a long flood of doll submissions by yourn truly:)

*huggles all of them*

Happy Krysta and Brianna's and Mr. Bean's birthdays:)

And April Fools day, I guess

Comments

[corollunum.livejournal.com]

*huggles* I care. I know I guess I don't comment a lot, but I do read your LJ just to make sure you're doing ok and everything since it seems we never get to talk anymore. You've been there for me so many times and you're just an awesome and amazing person that people would have to be stupid not to respect and love. Just hang in there, everything will be fine, eventually. :)

[jume.livejournal.com]

*huggles moni*

It just my little April fool's joke, y'know, moni? :)