Conflicting Interests
Feb. 10th, 2008 11:33 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
rubahAfter I finished Abhorsen by Garth Nix, my mind has been running through a ceaseless cycle of trying to ferret out ideas that could contribute to being a such enjoyable book/story/etc, and my old self-arguments against the means of authorship keep rising up.
You have no experience in the world, you couldn't write without research
You hate research, you'd never do enough to make it believable
You don't have any original ideas, all you could do is rehash what you've read
and they are discouraging. But the impulse is there to CREATE ( I did draw a little page of fanart xD it's pretty awful. ) but what, or how, and also why?
I had the fanciful thought that by committing myself to engineering, I would pretty much give up my more fine artsy interests, after all, you can't possibly have the time to devote your strength to every single venue out there, but I've grown addicted to reading again. Accelerated Reader in highschool mandated that I read, but I wasn't addicted to it. The school library just didn't have the kind of scope I wanted, I guess. (it did have some crazy scope though in some ways). I mean, I didn't want to read that entire anthology of fairy tales I picked up (well id idn't, I skipepd some that seemed boring), but maybe the internet was just too boring today, because I definitely read it.
I wish I felt that way about reading my calculus book. I have some sort of inhibition about reading math books. I just can't do it. can anyone really, in truth? Also American Government. I tried to read the next two chapter I needed to for my quiz tuesday, but I can only handle so many dozen pages about the american two-party system and the american party system which actually does have more than two party systems, but both parties connive together to impede any other party from ever getting more than a stranglehold on whatever poor candidate of the major party happens to share some portion of their ideals. ahem ralph nader.
I guess you need all things in moderation, but I think I'll make a stop by the library tomorrow after french. I have an oral in there. Je viens de Russellville. J'habite dans un residence universitaire. Elles est tres petite. Il y a une chambre et un piece. J'ai un lit et deux chaises comme meubles. Je fais la cuisine dans un four de micro-ondes. Je fais la menage. Ma mere fait la vaisselle. Je fais mes courses a l'universite. Avant les courses, je viens de manger le diner. Dans la cuisine on y trouve un four, un frigo, un congelateur, et le lave-vaisselle. Dans la sejour, on y trouve un sofa, une table basse, un tapis, et des tableaux. J'y suis allee le week-end dernier. Je ne me suis pas couchee avant minuit samedi soir. Je me suis levee avant midi ce matin. Je ne me suis pas reveille avant huit heures aujourd-hui. J'ai demenage avant le debut du semestre. je n'ai pas range ma chambre hier parce que je l'ai rangee vendredi soir. lol.
I think I was supposed to read about centroids and lamina or centers of gravity for calculus, to learn how to use INTEGRATION to find them or whatever, but I start daydreaming of variations on the word lamina (lamna, lanma, lamma) and applications for it as a name. (the Tota Lions from chemistry come to mind)
I even picked out a dream I would like to develop into some sort of a story, but then I might start considering myself a writer, and I would feel weird about that. I haven't considered myself to be one of those since my fanfic days. Oh lordy.
You have no experience in the world, you couldn't write without research
You hate research, you'd never do enough to make it believable
You don't have any original ideas, all you could do is rehash what you've read
and they are discouraging. But the impulse is there to CREATE ( I did draw a little page of fanart xD it's pretty awful. ) but what, or how, and also why?
I had the fanciful thought that by committing myself to engineering, I would pretty much give up my more fine artsy interests, after all, you can't possibly have the time to devote your strength to every single venue out there, but I've grown addicted to reading again. Accelerated Reader in highschool mandated that I read, but I wasn't addicted to it. The school library just didn't have the kind of scope I wanted, I guess. (it did have some crazy scope though in some ways). I mean, I didn't want to read that entire anthology of fairy tales I picked up (well id idn't, I skipepd some that seemed boring), but maybe the internet was just too boring today, because I definitely read it.
I wish I felt that way about reading my calculus book. I have some sort of inhibition about reading math books. I just can't do it. can anyone really, in truth? Also American Government. I tried to read the next two chapter I needed to for my quiz tuesday, but I can only handle so many dozen pages about the american two-party system and the american party system which actually does have more than two party systems, but both parties connive together to impede any other party from ever getting more than a stranglehold on whatever poor candidate of the major party happens to share some portion of their ideals. ahem ralph nader.
I guess you need all things in moderation, but I think I'll make a stop by the library tomorrow after french. I have an oral in there. Je viens de Russellville. J'habite dans un residence universitaire. Elles est tres petite. Il y a une chambre et un piece. J'ai un lit et deux chaises comme meubles. Je fais la cuisine dans un four de micro-ondes. Je fais la menage. Ma mere fait la vaisselle. Je fais mes courses a l'universite. Avant les courses, je viens de manger le diner. Dans la cuisine on y trouve un four, un frigo, un congelateur, et le lave-vaisselle. Dans la sejour, on y trouve un sofa, une table basse, un tapis, et des tableaux. J'y suis allee le week-end dernier. Je ne me suis pas couchee avant minuit samedi soir. Je me suis levee avant midi ce matin. Je ne me suis pas reveille avant huit heures aujourd-hui. J'ai demenage avant le debut du semestre. je n'ai pas range ma chambre hier parce que je l'ai rangee vendredi soir. lol.
I think I was supposed to read about centroids and lamina or centers of gravity for calculus, to learn how to use INTEGRATION to find them or whatever, but I start daydreaming of variations on the word lamina (lamna, lanma, lamma) and applications for it as a name. (the Tota Lions from chemistry come to mind)
I even picked out a dream I would like to develop into some sort of a story, but then I might start considering myself a writer, and I would feel weird about that. I haven't considered myself to be one of those since my fanfic days. Oh lordy.
